I am so sorry. Me and my mom got into an argument, and she said some fucked up things to me, and i just couldnt fight the urge. I hope to god you read this. I couldnt call you or text you because i got my phone taken at school. I let you & sarah down. I broke my promise.
These cuts on my wrists, are the deepest and worst ones i have ever done. I was bleeding so much, blood was dripping off my arm, there was blood everywhere. All over my legs, wrists, arms, hands, face, everywhere. My blood was all over the bathroom floor.
I tried to fight the urge to cut, but the feeling took over, and i gave up on fighting it. I know that you & sarah are dissapointed in me, and i am dissapointed in myself too, i let you, sarah, krystal, emma, mariah, diana, morgan, and everyone else down.
I am just so sorry I did this, I know that I hurt you, and everyone. I didnt call you or text you when i needed you when i promised i would do. i am so sorry. I love you so much Dean, and Sarah for that matter. I am so sorry i let you down like this.
Kailyn Alexandra Holtman <3
P.S. i love you so so much Dean, i really do.
i got my phone taken….
i got yellled at by my teacher…..
i got a zero in gym…..
i didnt eat lunch….
what doesn’t KILL you, only makes you STRONGER.
EVERYTHING happens for a REASON.
ANYTHING could HAPPEN.
NEVER GIVE UP.
you NEVER KNOW until you TRY.
you ARE WORTH IT.
tearing YOURSELF down, WONT make things BETTER.
pills, self harm, attempted suicide, WONT make things BETTER, it KILLS not only YOU, but EVERYONE ELSE.